And so here it is, my latest need to inflict my verbal diarrhoea on you poor innocent people...
Any woman out there will probably understand all my problems with just one word....Periods, they are the shittest thing, yes worst things happen but at the time it feels like the world has come to a halt to make you feel uncomfortable and unhappy. I only really feel bad on my first day but boy is that first day bad, emotions are the worst part for me, I just feel like I have to do something drastic or escape or I might just explode!!! It usually embodies any changes I have recently thought about making, for example getting my hair restyled, just going away camping for a few days randomly, going for a big long walk on my own maybe, getting a dog, getting a tattoo.....now if you're thinking "wow, a couple of those shouldn't be spontaneous decisions" you can rest assured that none of them ever actually happen which is poo. I usually end up acting very frustrated, being irritable around those I care about most and crying to my boyfriend at some point. Not at all exciting really.

I wish I was a more spontaneous person really but I've been brought up as quite a cautious person and haven't managed to shake that off just yet, especially as currently I still live under my parents roof and so live by certain rules such as....no dog! And would have to borrow my mum's car to go camping and living with them still means that my judgement is clouded by the "what would my parents think" clause.

This month my main thought is that of what to do with my hair. Relatively trivial but at the same time not, I had it cut short a few months ago and now it is annoying me no end....I can't really style it differently at all and have very little artistic flair in the hair dept. anyway. I am thinking of either growing it out a bit and then seeing what can be done or having it cut short again (as it has grown a bit) but this time funkier. I used to be very much against hair products but find myself willing to lean towards them in order to get the look that I want, I have no idea what this look is by the way!

I have also been thinking about getting a dog as of late, I am going to be moving into a house over the next few months with friends and so as I will be away from my parents by a few miles I thought that the decision is up to me really. True enough I may be moving around a bit in the next few years and money could be tight but I would always put the welfare of any dog of mine in front of even my own. I would actually like to get a rescue dog because they deserve another chance in my eyes, I come from manchester and so the obvious choice would be manchester dog's home however I was reading their myspace page and the person who created it simply worked there and the last thing she wrote was a couple of months ago and said how she had left and no longer supported the home as she did not like their ethics, I don't suppose anyone knows what she is talking about??

I will now go onto the fashion part of this vent! I have always disregarded fashion....when I was 10 I refused to wear pink or skirts/dresses and retained these beliefs until I was 16/17 when I got a long flowy skirt, I still dislike the colour pink but have nothing against skirts or dresses, I still don't wear them often but that is mainly due to my practical nature. Because I've never followed fashion (jeans and strappy top girl me) I never did the girly stuff like reading magazines and figuring out how my make up suited me etc. I also don't go out much and so on the times that I do, I have nothing suitable to wear and am at a losss as to how to make myself look different. I'm ok with going out for a meal but clubs/pubs/bars I am truly rubbish at! Recently due to this lack of makeup knowledge I have felt a tad unfeminine because of my short haircut, I mean I have a good figure in my opinion, it's just my face that I believe to not be gender specific as it were. I would also love just one outfit even to go out in.

Ah well, I think that's actually it for my vent, if you have made it this far then well done!!! And thanks for taking the time to read, these are just really my mental mullings but still, any comments on my thoughts are very welcome, I'm kinda new to this blogging thing!

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