So.....where to start....again I am bored and so feel the need to air my views about my life on here! Lucky you for reading it 
Recently I have been having very mixed emotions about so many things it is confusing to say the least! I have to admit that yes I am just one person in a world full of problems but for talking about my problems on here helps me and no one is forced to read about them! If you are reading btw then....please comment or message me, it would be very welcome!
My current situation is that I'm at University in Salford and have been living at home for the past year and commuting in however I feel deprived of a certain amount of freedom and so have taken steps towards flying the nest..at least for the next year anyhow. I am going to be moving into a house with my boyfriend, one of my friends and one of his, we have found a perfect house and are just about ready to sign contracts and move in at the beginning of august. It will be so very cool living in a house but I have also been having doubts which has been unsettling me because I also want this so much. I feel as though something has shifted in my relationship with my boyfriend over the past cpla weeks but I don't know quite what. We have talked about it because that's what we do but I don't know how to solve it or make it better etc. it's kinda like at times it's felt more like we're friends than lovers. We've been together for over 2 years now and I do love him, I know this because I would go to the ends of the Earth for him and I know that he feels the same way about me. Thing is I worry about something maybe happenning over the next year whilst we're in the house (sharing a room) and if it does it would make things so very awkward in the sense of what would happen. It so happens that I wanted to make sure I had my own space and so a little study is mine as it were but I don't know if I could live in there as a bedroom should something happen.
The other thing is whether everyone's going to gel and things because I keep envisaging people keeping to themselves a bit which would kind of suck really because student houses should be fun and stuff!
Another issue is that I have wanted a dog for about 10 years now (I was scared of them before that) but there are many pros and cons for me jumping into that adventure at this point in time as I think I explained in my last entry.. Any advice on dog owning would be very greatly appreciated!!
I also have a favour to ask all of you out there in environmental jobs.....do you know of any good year long placements that may be available starting from next july/august/september time? I would quite like to work in a forest/woodland area or something along those lines as a ranger or some such job. I am going into my second year of university having wasted a year doing the wrong course beforehand and would be starting placement in 2009.
Now after that slight detour.....
I would never say that I have family problems but I do not feel like I fully fit into my family at times and admit that I (probably like many others) wish they were different. I get on well with everyone but I don't like the many mannerisms and the way of thinking that has been instilled upon me, very cautious and also a tad pessimistic sometimes (take the house thing as an example of that) I wish I was more impulsive and felt less constrained by my parents opinion of me which at the moment is good but things like getting a dog would almost certainly not impress them, it would be like rebelling in a way! Don't get me wrong, I love them but....they're parents I guess and slightly overbearing ones at times. Either that or I just care about their opinions way too much which I probably do :s
My brother was up this weekend from his new home in Somerset, we get on ok but not close at all which is a real shame but we are quite different and he bugs me quite a lot at times.
If I do get a dog then I think I'll probably end up going camping with it....and no one else possibly, will definately take it out on good long walks when I can which I doubt I will have company from my boyfriend on, he likes sport but not really walking 
On another note, does anyone on here go climbing in Manchester area, in particular to Awesome walls in Bredbury? Also anyone weighing roughly 10-11 stone.
Think bed is sounding like the best cure for my boredom etc right now so nighty night, sweet dreams to all, xx